Vriginia Tech, MIT....

Kit wants to go to MIT....

So I looked up at some statistics - only 13% of people who apply get in. It's harder for a white male (of course). SAT scores will have to hover mostly around 700 in order to get in. Then there are interviews, etc. And if by any chance, he does get in, it will cost him (me) around $40,000 per year.

Then there is the shootings in Virginia Tech yesterday....

I'll never retire!!!

I am in my own hell...

Two graduate level courses, 40+ hours of work a week, 2 nights of climbing a week, Art Club every Sunday, Working on freelance projects on the side...and some light entertaining every once in a while. I am in my own hell!

In the Wheel of Life mandala - the realm of hell is a self created cycle of pain and abuse... and the resolution is the Buddha holding a mirror to the the person to illustrate the cause...

But what if I already know the cause? What if I am so bored with life that filling my days with countless obligations is the only way I see through it? Does the knowledge - "buddhi" truly is a way out of the realm of hell? Or is it only the perception of suffering that changes? What if it has no affect on the life at all? Am I still in hell if I do not suffer? My hell is boredom - so are series of busy rituals the path to salvation?

I wonder.