Edge of reason

From time to time there are periods in my life where I am just restless... ichneumon flies set into my being...I feel trapped - like a caged animal, desperately wanting to run away.

I have had this feeling so often that I am beginning to get used to it. However, I know better than to settle into a comfort zone - that will not do for me. What brings this on? Why so often? It is, of course because I am the most unreasonable person I know.

To quote on of my favorite quotes from George Bernard Shaw :

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the conditions that surround him... The unreasonable man adapts surrounding conditions to himself... All progress depends on the unreasonable man."

So, I find myself looking back and finding that the times when I feel like running away are the times when I have encountered a situation I wanted to change - completely - and never bothered. I guess the choice is mine at the end of the day. I could either change everything around me - or I could change where I am. In recent years, I have been choosing the later more and more.

"People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, make them."
-- Mrs. Warren's Profession, 1893

I wonder what my circumstances will be in the near future?

My collection...

Meridith once introduced me as the one who "collects interesting people". I liked the description at the time. I've used it to describe my self since then. But now that I come to think of it, it is a very sad statement of me. I'd rather be the one who has interesting experiences than the one who collects people with interesting experiences.

Not that there is anything wrong with being surrounded by interesting people... I have no time for the mundane. However, have I substituted my life's experiences with those of others? The last thing I want to do is to live vicariously through others. Is that where I am headed?

I undoubtedly am pleased with my collection of people - I wonder if I am as collectible as them?

Slowly dying...

I think that you have a finite number of quality moments in time - the length of you life, however depends on how many quality moments you spend. You may live to be a hundred and slowly deplete you moments in redundant trivialities of life - or live a very short and intense life...This is why so many talented people die so young - and others like me - linger on...

I look back on my life and see some of these quality moments - my move America, my taking up a new career, me pursuing the love of my life, me having my kids.... but the rest is just filler moments - moments of no consequences at all.

I have a feeling that I will linger on...

How I spent my summer...

I got an email today from Gordon title how I spent my summer - it got me thinking...

Let's see ...

Had another birthday. Ken bought me a motorcycle for my birthday - a Honda Shadow 750. It is sweet! It took me FOREVER to pass my riding test...I had never ridden a motorbike before - so it was definitely an adventure!

What else? We went to Puerto Rico and the US Virgin Islands. Puerto Rico was ok - we visited El Yunke and it was VERY crowded. Did not care for it all that much - especially after having been to the rain forests in Costa Rica. The best part was the Bio Luminescence bay in Viaques - that was absolutely magical. Old San Juan was the usual Central / South American / Spanish conquered city... Charming, but once you've seen a few of them...

The US Virgin Islands were pretty much a tourist trap. Every one just looks at you as a cash cow... It was very beautiful - but I wouldn't go back - ever!

So now we're back and the school starts this week for the kids... usual stuff.

A while...

Ok - so the summer has come and gone and boy was it hectic!

It's been a while since I posted, and life has been busy. Let's see - I had a birthday, we went on vacation to Puerto Rica and US Virgin Islands, we bid on a property in Murphy, North Carolina and the bid was accepted, and I bought a motorcycle. That about covers it.